Last night, I saw a tweet coming from my friend. Hindi ko alam kung para sa akin ba talaga ‘tong course na ‘to. It was followed by another tweet saying Nawawalan na ako ng gana mag-aral. I became worried with what she said because she is a graduating student. I decided to talk…
Everyone is afraid to be left behind.
"I want someone who will never leave. No matter how hard it is to stay with me."
I wonder why, almost everyone have the same desire, but only few were fulfilled. It’s what everybody longs for. Someone who’ll stay….forever.
I’m caught in the middle of not trusting humans and believing in their goodness. I’ve been playing safe, trying not to be attached to anyone. Why? Because I’m afraid. I’m afraid that they’ll come, and then leave. Knowing the fact that people come and go, I closed the door. Thinking that maybe I could make it on my own. If no one comes, no one will leave. If I’m alone, there’s no one who could hurt me, and I won’t hurt anyone as well. That’s what I thought. But being in that state, I realized, no one could make it on their own. Humans will always long for love and belongingness.
It’s sad, I know. But it’s bearable. It is possible to live with pain. I’m preparing myself for the risks I’ll take sooner or later. It may seem like right now I stopped believing but I know, one day I’ll believe again.
I wrote this not to help anyone. I wrote this to inform. If you can relate to what I’m saying, then it means I’m not alone. I’m not the only one with these things in mind. And the same goes for you, please know that you are not alone. You might not always remember, but please never forget, you are not alone. Now, if you can’t relate to what I’m saying, please know that there are people who feel this way. Alone, drowning, dying. It could be the person you’re always with, and you’ll never know they feel that way. It’s because hiding is much more easier at some point. Faking smiles, laughing out the tears, hiding the pain. By day one way, by night another. So I suggest that no matter how hard it is not to speak ill of others, refrain from those things. Words could kill.
Humans, stay nice even when others are not. True love, true friends, they will come no matter what. That’s what I believe in. While waiting for them, create memories, good and bad. So that by the time they come, we could share to them stories worth telling.
(This is not mine. This is from my friend’s blog. I just want to share it. D, peace tayo. Late na naman ako magpapaalam. XD)